As someone who is deeply nostalgic, I have always had a difficult relationship with change. Driving down old streets, listening to the soundtracks of seasons that have come and gone, holding onto anything that allows me to close my eyes and travel back in time - these are all tactics I employ whenever I find myself trying to keep a chapter of my life open just a little bit longer. Against all reason, I convince myself that I have the power to prevent the inevitable and outrun the passage of time. I easily attach to rhythms in life and then I struggle to let them go once they reach their end. That has always been a reality about who I am.
I am in the midst of a transitory period in my life, but unlike the ones before it, this one is notably different. While initially I was quick to fill the silence with old habits, it slowly dawned on me that these phases of life are actually ripe with potential when you have the courage to stop running from them. To stand firmly where your feet are planted, as uncomfortable or awkward as it may be. To feel everything that you naturally want to ignore in its fullest intensity. To really become acquainted with where you are, instead of thinking so much about what used to be. And when you do so, you’ll start to realize that a subtle, but incredible transformation begins to take form. You start to get better at listening to your heart and recognizing what makes it beat faster. You define with greater conviction what you value, what ignites a fire within you, and what brings you joy. And most importantly you rest easy, knowing that the life you lead is not one of comfortable complacency, but that it is authentically your own. I’m not claiming that this process is quick or easy or that it has a definite end. Most of what’s worthwhile is rarely any of those things. But by embracing change instead of resisting it, we come to know who we are and we start to see beauty in the places that we used to overlook. To accept whatever may come with an open heart and an open mind - this is the freedom that I think most of us desire.
We are well into the final month of this year, and that may come with a multitude of feelings for you. Maybe you know what awaits you this coming year, maybe it’s a blank canvas, or maybe you’re looking back wondering where all the time went because you’re honestly not sure if you even really lived any of it, but you just know that you want to start. When the future is uncertain, we often run straight into the arms of the past. No matter where you are, it’s not too late to begin living for this moment. Loosen the grip, let go, and be here now.
About the Author: Andreina Pardey. Andreina is the lead blog contributor at Basquet. She is a storyteller at heart, passionate about understanding people and the things that connect them. You can find her exploring new restaurants, listening to live music, or at her favorite bookstore when she's not writing. Connect with her on LinkedIn.